Alicia if your reading this I want to tell you i love you. I still love you. I'm and idiot for telling you that we shouldn't be friends. I'm a drastic person and as you know i make irrational decisions. All i can think about is that first night when i held you. That is the first time i started loving you. Everything has changed so much i don't know what to make of it. I want to win back your trust so bad. I'm crazy for you. And just thinking that i don't have you anymore makes me cry. Sure i tried to like other people but i always came back to you. I truly loved you. I know i said that i didn't want to be friends but i...i just don't know what to do. You have so many new friends and i'm happy for you but yet you're still sad. I believe i need you and you still need me. I can't keep avoiding you. It's not in my nature. I have to talk to everybody. I want to hold you again like that first night how i made everything bad in your life gone even if it was just for those couple of minutes. i'm so in love with you i swear i am. I know its weird for you youstill see comfort in me. I want to hug you. God you are so beautiful. I'm sorry i keep looking at you and making you feel awkward but i can't help it. We made each others bad feelings go away. We  both understood each other. I want  you back so much. I want to look into your eyes like we did when we were holding each other so close. Your smile oh god your smile.It is the best thing in the worldto me. I wanna protect you. I love you so much and i hope you read this.As you can see i didn't plan this at all and its coming from my heart. I am not trying to impress you or begging you to come back I just want to tell you how i feel because you're the only person i feel comfortable with

Currently Listening Black Celebration By Depeche Mode see related

Wow its been a long time.. a really long time anyway this past weekend me and alicia and chris went to alicia's beach house and we had so much fun. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ALICIA YOU'RE THE GREATEST! I'm so happy i'm with alicia and i'm so glad cuddling exists :) It's the best thing ever! I love you so much alicia I love you i love you i love you i love you I<3U I love you SO MUCH GONNA DIE THIS WEEKEND I'm not gonna see you in 3 weeks I'll try to call you and say happy 6th month anniversary i'll try really hard I'm not exactly sure how long i've known you but it means so much to me our friendship and our relationship I'm really looking forward this sunday try to come at 11 THERE'S NO OTHER WAY TO EXPLAIN IT, OUR LOVE you're so good to me thankyou for just being you I LOVE YOU SO MUCH but i gotta go now I'm so sorry I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART I WANNA BE WITH YOU FOREVER!

i wanna hold you so tight right now

i love you alicia!

Yesterday was pretty cool. Me and alicia hung out at this country club with my dad. we just went on the golf course and looked around. Everything was so much more beautiful, the sky, the clouds and the trees all because she was in my arms. I really wish we could've had more time together. She had to go home because her mom might be mad since she hasn't seen her since wednesday because of our gettysburg trip. That trip was ok, i hated the fact that i didn't get to see alicia at all. It was so terrible, i missed her so much. I love her with all my heart. Every night i make an attempt to whisper in her ear to comfort her from far away. Sometimes i just get so scared that she isn't going to be all right. I HAVE AMS and alicia has CMS. lol well that's all folks *looney toons music* bye

P.S. I LOVE YOU ALICIA!!!!!!!

Currently Reading The Ultimate Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy By Douglas Adams see related

Sorry guys. I haven't been able to write in awhile, well i mostly didn't feel like it, i'm still not used to this thing. Anyway on to the recap.
Last friday I ripped my tendon off my hip while running at our biggest track meet. I started off everything was good until i got to the 50 meter mark (running the 100m) something happened and i started stumbling but i finished although we lost 1st oh well, i really regret not falling down and giving up. Anyway i was in alot of pain, i got home and at about 9:30 i was screaming in pain, my leg kept having spasm and they hurt so much, i had to be taken to the hospital in an ambulance and then things started to get better, they gave me painkillers and crutches and i've been better since. I missed 2 days of school, i didn't like it to much, i was so bored and i'd rather be with my loved one. On saturday Alicia came over and we had alittle fun, we didn't do much except watch a movie and then she had to leave. It wasn't the greatest day but she did her best to take care of me and i really appreciate and admire that. Today Alicia's Dad gave me a ride home with my cane. Just like the day when i jumped in the car for my meet, she grabbed my hand, and i just held it as tight as i could. when we got to my house i gave her her birthday presents early. The first thing she did after she looked at everything was give me a big hug. I wrapped my arms around her, tighter and tighter. I love it so much when she hugs. She gives the best hugs, not that i've ever gotten one before, but she does! Anyway, I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND THERES NOTHING THAT CAN GET IN MY WAY OF HER. I absolutely hate people who bother her, they don't deserve to exist. WHY CAN'T I BE WITH HER ALONE FOREVER??? I WANT TO HOLD HER IN MY ARMS AND NEVER LET GO. I LOVE YOU ALICIA!!!!!!!!